to the wagon :( I can't believe it's been so long since I posted. I can't believe that I have fallen off the wagon and it ran over me. I've only gained back 5 lbs because I'm still being very cautious of what I eat but I haven't juiced in almost 3 weeks.
I have been trying to eat healthy and have been able to sustain that for the most part. That's the problem...*Sigh* I've eaten more meat than I've wanted to because the husband can't quit eating it and it's in the house and if he makes me a pork chop I'm going to eat it! I've been trying to make meatless dishes and the husband has been less than enthused.
The other day I went to Walmart and decided that I was going to start my fast again on Tuesday so I bought a couple of sodas and nutty bars! I'm so weak. I ate the nutty bars and drank all the soda and felt absolutely terrible. I was bloated and felt sick to my stomach. I know better! I know better than to eat this way.
So this morning I juiced 2 apples, 10 carrots, 2 inches of ginger and 3 small beets. I just finished drinking my breakfast and I"m still hungry.
I started this post a week ago and am just not getting back to it to finish it up!
In that time I have fallen off the wagon and I can't even see it in the distance.
I am so incredibly weak willed! I so want to change myself but it just seems that there is always something around every corner trying to derail me. I feel as tho I have absolutely NO support at home. I'm not going to go into it again because I've already discussed it a couple of times.
I have some extremely stressful situations in my life right now and eating junk food has always been my coping mechinism. ALWAYS. So now I'm going thru a very stressful time and in order for me to deal without freaking the fuck out I ate. I ate 3 boxes of little debbie cakes in a 2 day time span. Secretly of course, I can't let anyone know what I'm doing. I also have been drinking soda.
Secretly, of course. In fact yesterday I needed one so badly while I was at work that I walked out the back door of the store and walked around the side of the building to the soda machine. Purchased one and then took a big drink...walked back around the side of the building and back in the front door all the while hiding the soda in my pocket. Then I put the soda in the fridge after taking another big drink and went back to my work station. After work there were still 2 ppl in the store with me so I had to sneak the soda back out of the fridge and hide it in my pocket so I could take it home with me.
This is the vicious cycle I live in. I have made myself accountable and if I show weakness I"m scared of what my ppl will think of me.
Luckily, and I do mean luckily, I have NOT gained any weight back. I was extremely surprised when I stepped on the scale this morning and I wasn't 285 lbs again. I was 260.4 which is only a couple of lbs heavier than I was 3 weeks ago. I haven't weighed myself since then. The reason I weighed myself today is because I woke up and decided that this is the day the madness ends. I really don't think I'm going to start juicing again but I am definitely going to stop drinking the soda and eating the crap again.
I'll keep you posted. Wish me luck...unfortunately, I feel I need it more now than when I started the first time.
Ciao for now.
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Going Strong
I have been juicing regularly and following a decent diet. I have veered off the path a couple of times but nothing too bad.
I've noticed a couple of things in the past couple of weeks. One is that my skin is so much softer and looks soo much better than it ever has. Another is that I don't have to take my allergy meds nearly as often as I used to. Usually, if I didn't take my allergy meds everyday I was simply miserable. I now can go 4 or 5 days before I start feeling itchy from not having taken them.
I'm getting close to my 10% goal. I've set up a series of 10% goals so that I don't get so overwhelmed. My first goal is 29 lbs and my goal date is 9/30/12. I have 6 lbs left to go and I'm really hoping I make it. I won't get discouraged if I don't because I've actually come so far and I feel so much better than I have in years.
If I meet all my goals I will be at my goal weight by April of 2013. I hope I can do it all before that but it took me years to put this much weight on...it's going to take a little while to get it back off.
I'm still exercising but not as much. It's difficult to get any time to myself.
Things are going well and I'm not giving up. I've had too many advantages from juicing not to continue.
I've noticed a couple of things in the past couple of weeks. One is that my skin is so much softer and looks soo much better than it ever has. Another is that I don't have to take my allergy meds nearly as often as I used to. Usually, if I didn't take my allergy meds everyday I was simply miserable. I now can go 4 or 5 days before I start feeling itchy from not having taken them.
I'm getting close to my 10% goal. I've set up a series of 10% goals so that I don't get so overwhelmed. My first goal is 29 lbs and my goal date is 9/30/12. I have 6 lbs left to go and I'm really hoping I make it. I won't get discouraged if I don't because I've actually come so far and I feel so much better than I have in years.
If I meet all my goals I will be at my goal weight by April of 2013. I hope I can do it all before that but it took me years to put this much weight on...it's going to take a little while to get it back off.
I'm still exercising but not as much. It's difficult to get any time to myself.
Things are going well and I'm not giving up. I've had too many advantages from juicing not to continue.
Monday, September 17, 2012
ZUMBA!
I bought the Zumba workout months ago...in fact I think it was over a year ago. When I got it in the mail I was so excited that I opened it up and then promptly but everything back in the box and stuffed it under the couch...I was walking on my treadmill the other day thinking jeeze this is boring when I remembered ZUMBA! I walked for 10 minutes on the treadmill then pulled the Zumba box out from under the couch and blew the dust off of it...after my asthma attack cleared I pulled the contents out of the box and popped in the basics disk as directed so I could learn the steps. More like I could see how they were done and attempt to learn how to do them....but the instructors assured me the more I did the work out routines the better I would become at the steps..I certainly hope so!
Anyway, I got thru about half of the steps workout and had to call it quits...just learning the steps are a workout!
The next day (Sunday) was pretty painful. My legs hurt my hips hurt and my ankles hurt. So I didn't work out yesterday...I did help a friend with a yardsale so I did burn some calories tho..carting her stuff out in the morning and then helping her cart the stuff that didn't sell in after we buttoned up for the day. I definitely worked up a sweat.
Today is my day off so I ran my errands...took the car to the shop...again...found out it needs new rotors and calipers - more money spent...so stressful I've already put $500 into the car this month...why do I bring this up? because I believe I did INCREDIBLY well by not stopping at BK and grabbing some comfort food because I'm so stressed out about putting more money into this car and that it's my only car and I don't have the money to fix it right now after putting $500 into already with 2 new tires, an oil change and transmission service! I went home and grabbed an apple instead THENNN
I popped in the Zumba DVD and started where I left off. Saturday I did about 25 minutes of the 53 minute steps workout. I did the remainder today 28 minutes THEN I played the 20 minute express which I got almost all the way thru before I felt like I was going to pass out. All in all I did 45 minutes of Zumba...I'm sweaty and out of breath but I feel great! I think I'm going to walk on the Treadmill on Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday and Then do Zumba on Sunday, Monday, Wednesday and Friday.
The biggest thing is getting the husband out of the house so I can exercise since he's not very supportive at all. He always has a snide comment or he complains because I'm making too much noise...
That's all for now. It's time to rehydrate and drink some juice. I'm starving!
Anyway, I got thru about half of the steps workout and had to call it quits...just learning the steps are a workout!
The next day (Sunday) was pretty painful. My legs hurt my hips hurt and my ankles hurt. So I didn't work out yesterday...I did help a friend with a yardsale so I did burn some calories tho..carting her stuff out in the morning and then helping her cart the stuff that didn't sell in after we buttoned up for the day. I definitely worked up a sweat.
Today is my day off so I ran my errands...took the car to the shop...again...found out it needs new rotors and calipers - more money spent...so stressful I've already put $500 into the car this month...why do I bring this up? because I believe I did INCREDIBLY well by not stopping at BK and grabbing some comfort food because I'm so stressed out about putting more money into this car and that it's my only car and I don't have the money to fix it right now after putting $500 into already with 2 new tires, an oil change and transmission service! I went home and grabbed an apple instead THENNN
I popped in the Zumba DVD and started where I left off. Saturday I did about 25 minutes of the 53 minute steps workout. I did the remainder today 28 minutes THEN I played the 20 minute express which I got almost all the way thru before I felt like I was going to pass out. All in all I did 45 minutes of Zumba...I'm sweaty and out of breath but I feel great! I think I'm going to walk on the Treadmill on Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday and Then do Zumba on Sunday, Monday, Wednesday and Friday.
The biggest thing is getting the husband out of the house so I can exercise since he's not very supportive at all. He always has a snide comment or he complains because I'm making too much noise...
That's all for now. It's time to rehydrate and drink some juice. I'm starving!
Sunday, September 9, 2012
I'm a slacker...
I have really slacked off on my juicing the last few days. I weighed myself today and I have only lost .8 lbs this week! But then I started thinking...it's been almost a month since I measured myself so I did that and found out that I've lost almost 11"!!!
That really kick started me. I have to add some exercise to my schedule and I will see the weight and inches drop faster. That's my goal for this week - to start exercising.
Today is Sunday and I usually cook on Sunday. My husband always complains that I don't cook with meat anymore...but if he wants me to cook then he needs to deal with it.
So today I made Spicy Black Bean and Rice Enchilada Casserole. I started with the rice. I cooked a cup of Brown Pearl rice according to the directions on the pack and as that was cooking I made homemade enchilada sauce. I started looking at the ingredients in the store bought stuff and it was enough to worry me. So I found a healthy recipe online that doesn't require sugar or any preservatives. I have been buying tomato products without any added sugars as well. Here is the recipe for the Enchilada sauce:
2 tbls of vegetable oil
2 tbls of chili powder
2 tbls of flour
8 oz can of tomato paste
2 cups of water
1/4 tsp cayenne pepper
1/2 tsp of cumin
1/2 tsp garlic powder
1/2 tsp salt
mix the vegetable oil, chili powder and flour in a sauce pan and heat for about 2 minutes but don't let it burn. Add remaining ingredients stirring well to break up the paste. Let cook on med - low for about 20 minutes - then set aside.
By now the rice should be done as well.
In a stock pan you will make the enchilada filling.
2 tbls vegetable oil
1 large onion (sweet - diced)
2 green peppers (diced)
3 or 10 cloves of garlic (diced or crushed)
1 15 oz can black beans (drained and rinsed)
1 15 oz can of kernel corn (drained)
1 15 oz can of garbanzo beans (drained and rinsed)
1 6 oz can of sliced mushrooms (drained)
1 15 oz can of diced tomatoes with chilis
2 cups of brown rice
9 corn tortillas or you can use flour tortillas
Enchilada sauce
1/2 tsp red pepper flake
1/2 tsp cumin
1 cup of low fat part skim mozzerella cheese
1 cup of a low fat chedder cheese
saute the onion, peppers and garlic in the vegetable oil for a few minutes until the onion is translucent. Add the black beans, corn, garbanzo beans, mushrooms and diced tomato with chilis and mix well. cook on med - low heat until all is heated thru (about 10 min). Add the brown rice - it should still be warm from recently cooking if it has been chilled then heat the mixture until heated thru. Preheat the oven to 350 degrees - In a large casserole dish (13X9) spoon a very thin layer of enchilada sauce in the bottom. Position 3 tortillas over the sauce so that they cover the majority of the bottom. Spoon some sauce over the tortillas and spread evenly. Spoon half the mixture onto the tortillas and spread evenly. place another layer of tortillas onto the mixture. I coated the tortilla bottoms with sauce first then placed them. I put two full tortillas on there then split one in half and coverd the sides. then spoon some more sauce on the tortillas and layer the rest of the mixture on. Cover with another layer of sauced tortillas.
Make sure the sauce covers all of the tortillas. Then cover with aluminum foil and bake in the oven for 25 minutes. Top with cheeses then put back in the oven for 10 minutes until cheese melts. Let stand for 5 minutes and serve.
I didn't use cooking spray because there is already enough oil in the recipe and I don't care for cooking spray so I took my chances and it didn't stick too terribly. You can do what you like there.
You can top with cilantro, salsa or sour cream. I preferred mine with nothing else on it.
That really kick started me. I have to add some exercise to my schedule and I will see the weight and inches drop faster. That's my goal for this week - to start exercising.
Today is Sunday and I usually cook on Sunday. My husband always complains that I don't cook with meat anymore...but if he wants me to cook then he needs to deal with it.
So today I made Spicy Black Bean and Rice Enchilada Casserole. I started with the rice. I cooked a cup of Brown Pearl rice according to the directions on the pack and as that was cooking I made homemade enchilada sauce. I started looking at the ingredients in the store bought stuff and it was enough to worry me. So I found a healthy recipe online that doesn't require sugar or any preservatives. I have been buying tomato products without any added sugars as well. Here is the recipe for the Enchilada sauce:
2 tbls of vegetable oil
2 tbls of chili powder
2 tbls of flour
8 oz can of tomato paste
2 cups of water
1/4 tsp cayenne pepper
1/2 tsp of cumin
1/2 tsp garlic powder
1/2 tsp salt
mix the vegetable oil, chili powder and flour in a sauce pan and heat for about 2 minutes but don't let it burn. Add remaining ingredients stirring well to break up the paste. Let cook on med - low for about 20 minutes - then set aside.
By now the rice should be done as well.
In a stock pan you will make the enchilada filling.
2 tbls vegetable oil
1 large onion (sweet - diced)
2 green peppers (diced)
3 or 10 cloves of garlic (diced or crushed)
1 15 oz can black beans (drained and rinsed)
1 15 oz can of kernel corn (drained)
1 15 oz can of garbanzo beans (drained and rinsed)
1 6 oz can of sliced mushrooms (drained)
1 15 oz can of diced tomatoes with chilis
2 cups of brown rice
9 corn tortillas or you can use flour tortillas
Enchilada sauce
1/2 tsp red pepper flake
1/2 tsp cumin
1 cup of low fat part skim mozzerella cheese
1 cup of a low fat chedder cheese
saute the onion, peppers and garlic in the vegetable oil for a few minutes until the onion is translucent. Add the black beans, corn, garbanzo beans, mushrooms and diced tomato with chilis and mix well. cook on med - low heat until all is heated thru (about 10 min). Add the brown rice - it should still be warm from recently cooking if it has been chilled then heat the mixture until heated thru. Preheat the oven to 350 degrees - In a large casserole dish (13X9) spoon a very thin layer of enchilada sauce in the bottom. Position 3 tortillas over the sauce so that they cover the majority of the bottom. Spoon some sauce over the tortillas and spread evenly. Spoon half the mixture onto the tortillas and spread evenly. place another layer of tortillas onto the mixture. I coated the tortilla bottoms with sauce first then placed them. I put two full tortillas on there then split one in half and coverd the sides. then spoon some more sauce on the tortillas and layer the rest of the mixture on. Cover with another layer of sauced tortillas.
Make sure the sauce covers all of the tortillas. Then cover with aluminum foil and bake in the oven for 25 minutes. Top with cheeses then put back in the oven for 10 minutes until cheese melts. Let stand for 5 minutes and serve.
I didn't use cooking spray because there is already enough oil in the recipe and I don't care for cooking spray so I took my chances and it didn't stick too terribly. You can do what you like there.
You can top with cilantro, salsa or sour cream. I preferred mine with nothing else on it.
Enjoy!
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
Day 25...
This is Day 25 for my juicing. I'm not doing a fast per se any longer but I still juice at least 2 times a day.
Labor day weekend went well but then I didn't have a bbq or go to anyones house who was having a bbq. I stayed home all day and vegged in every sense of the word!
Yesterday, Day 24 & Tuesday, I had ran out of produce so I didn't juice for breakfast so by the time lunch came around I was famished...well, I hadn't picked up any produce so when I got home I popped a potato in the nuclearizer and sprinkled some salad seasonings and baco bits on and ate that. After work I picked up about 30 bux worth of produce and went home...then I had to run out to a friends house 40 minutes away and drop off a couple of things for her. We started talking and I stayed until 10. When I got back into town I had to stop at Walmart to pick up some bread and peanut butter and that's when I caved! Having only eaten one baked potato for lunch that day I bought a snack sized bag or doritos and a diet dr pepper!
I ate the entire bag of chips on the way home - as I discussed earlier, I only live about 5 minutes from Walmart - and drank half the soda!
I knew I shouldn't do it! I knew it! I finished the soda once I got home and about 10 minutes after I felt like complete shit.
I ate an orange and went to bed. I felt so disappointed in myself and I just couldn't believe that I could be that weak when I have done very well in the last few weeks. I've resisted the donut and birthday cake temptations at work this month and even when the husband makes Banana bread but I bought a flippin' bag of chips and a soda.
So, this morning I got on the scale to see what damage I had done to my weight loss and surprisingly enough I hadn't gained any weight since Sunday but I know eating that bag of chips and drinking that soda caused me not to lose any since Sunday as well.
I juiced my morning carrot, apple, ginger and beet juice and drank it with vigor. I was only hanging off the side of the Wagon, I didn't completely fall off. So I was able to pull myself back on this morning and I will continue with my journey.
After I got to work, one of my customers I don't see very oftenly came in and the first thing she said to me was "It looks like you are losing weight!" I said "I AM!" We talked a little about my juice fast and how I feel so much better doing this and how it seems to have me more at peace than any other diet I've ever been on. *this is the customer that tried to talk me into doing HCG drops for weight loss* At first she was a little bit "are you crazy" but as I explained to her that I juice a wide variety of produce everyday and that I am getting a rainbow of nutrients everyday she was very happy for me. She even mentioned that she might give juicing a try because she wants to lose about 20 lbs. I told her I lost 20 lbs in about 3 weeks with juicing at least 2 meals a day.
I'm feeling better about myself today and I am a firm believe that EVERYTHING happens for a reason. Her bluetooth device had stopped working over the weekend and she had to come in and have us check it ultimately she had to buy a new one...for whatever reason, I'm glad she came in because that was my sign not to give up just because I had slipped off the side of the wagon and was hanging by my shoelaces.
Happy Juicing!
Labor day weekend went well but then I didn't have a bbq or go to anyones house who was having a bbq. I stayed home all day and vegged in every sense of the word!
Yesterday, Day 24 & Tuesday, I had ran out of produce so I didn't juice for breakfast so by the time lunch came around I was famished...well, I hadn't picked up any produce so when I got home I popped a potato in the nuclearizer and sprinkled some salad seasonings and baco bits on and ate that. After work I picked up about 30 bux worth of produce and went home...then I had to run out to a friends house 40 minutes away and drop off a couple of things for her. We started talking and I stayed until 10. When I got back into town I had to stop at Walmart to pick up some bread and peanut butter and that's when I caved! Having only eaten one baked potato for lunch that day I bought a snack sized bag or doritos and a diet dr pepper!
I ate the entire bag of chips on the way home - as I discussed earlier, I only live about 5 minutes from Walmart - and drank half the soda!
I knew I shouldn't do it! I knew it! I finished the soda once I got home and about 10 minutes after I felt like complete shit.
I ate an orange and went to bed. I felt so disappointed in myself and I just couldn't believe that I could be that weak when I have done very well in the last few weeks. I've resisted the donut and birthday cake temptations at work this month and even when the husband makes Banana bread but I bought a flippin' bag of chips and a soda.
So, this morning I got on the scale to see what damage I had done to my weight loss and surprisingly enough I hadn't gained any weight since Sunday but I know eating that bag of chips and drinking that soda caused me not to lose any since Sunday as well.
I juiced my morning carrot, apple, ginger and beet juice and drank it with vigor. I was only hanging off the side of the Wagon, I didn't completely fall off. So I was able to pull myself back on this morning and I will continue with my journey.
After I got to work, one of my customers I don't see very oftenly came in and the first thing she said to me was "It looks like you are losing weight!" I said "I AM!" We talked a little about my juice fast and how I feel so much better doing this and how it seems to have me more at peace than any other diet I've ever been on. *this is the customer that tried to talk me into doing HCG drops for weight loss* At first she was a little bit "are you crazy" but as I explained to her that I juice a wide variety of produce everyday and that I am getting a rainbow of nutrients everyday she was very happy for me. She even mentioned that she might give juicing a try because she wants to lose about 20 lbs. I told her I lost 20 lbs in about 3 weeks with juicing at least 2 meals a day.
I'm feeling better about myself today and I am a firm believe that EVERYTHING happens for a reason. Her bluetooth device had stopped working over the weekend and she had to come in and have us check it ultimately she had to buy a new one...for whatever reason, I'm glad she came in because that was my sign not to give up just because I had slipped off the side of the wagon and was hanging by my shoelaces.
Happy Juicing!
Thursday, August 30, 2012
I was thinking today...
and trying to pinpoint WHY this weight loss endevor seems to be my last. As you know from my first post, I have tried just about every diet or diet pill under the sun. I've some success with some and not so much with others...but everything always ended up the same...I would stop the diet and I would gain EVERYTHING I lost and then some back. I was the typical YO-YO dieter. Lose some then gain some and more...lose some and gain some....back and forth.
Most of the diets I just got sick of eating that way....the one that I had the most success with but despised the way I ate was the Atkins Diet. I love meat. I'm such a carnivore...if a meal didn't contain some sort of meat than it wasn't a meal. But the Atkins Diet goes way too far. After about 4 months and 50 lbs lost I couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't eat all that meat. It's just not good for you! The first few weeks off the diet I didn't eat much meat at all. I went back to veggies and fruits, the produce that I had missed sooo much while eating that way.
But eventually, I went right back to eating my old way...processed foods, meats some dairy. Junk food galore. Chips, cakes, cookies. I think I should have bought stock in Little Debbie. It was nothing for me to go to Walmart and pick up a couple of boxes of Little Debbie cakes and eat at least a box on my way home from the store. I only live about 5 minutes from Walmart! I would hide the other box and not let my husband know I had purchased it and when he was in the shower or when he left to run an errand I would rush to them and stuff a bunch in my mouth! I would do the same thing with Donuts or the Deli.
Anyway...back to WHY I think this weight loss endevor will be my last - The simple fact that I am scared TO DEATH to become diebetic. My family - both sides - have long histories of diebeties in the family. My dad's side is mostly juvenile diebeties. I have had too many aunts, uncles and cousins die from complications of diebeties. The most memorable was my Uncle Lewis. My sister and I grew up with him around. My dad and he were the closest in age and were really close as far as brothers go. We would spend alot of time at his house or he at ours. When he divorced from his wife he spent even more time at our place. He had a standing invitation to dinner and he was usually there right with us every night after work.
The first time I saw him fill his needle up and give himself a shot in the stomach made me cringe! I couldn't watch after that and always looked away when he would pull out his little pack.
I visit the doctor regularly because of my family history and while I was growing up I got blood tests done about every 6 months and the number they looked at most was the glucose. They always came back OK. When I got out on my own I still checked in with the doctor and go frequent blood tests just to make sure and even as my weight climbed my glucose levels stayed the same.
So I guess I didn't see my weight as such a problem as long as I was diebetic. That was my epiphiny this morning. I was talking to my sister online and she's diebetic. We were talking about her upcoming doctors appt and blood panels and all I could do was think "God, I'm so glad I don't have diebeties." and it hit me! I've been heavy for 15+ years and have never had a diebeties scare until this last blood panel. I always have thought about diebeties in the back of my mind but as long as my glucose levels were good what difference did it make that I was overweight other than I feel terrible about myself and hate being stared at as I enter a room.
This is why I know in my heart without a doubt this will be the last time I try to lose weight. I am making a lifestyle change and once my body has healed itself I won't need to worry about these things any longer. I enjoy eating this way and in some ways it's just easier. I can throw a bunch of veggies and some fruit into the juicer and be on my way.
I've been on a lot of diets and I can honestly say I've never been this at peace while on one. I don't feel deprived or starved. I eat when I get hungry and I don't worry about calories. That's the most awesome thing about eating this way. You don't have to count calories or fat or carbs. Everything is whole and natural. I read labels quite a bit and don't buy anything with added sugar or anything that has something in that I can't pronounce. It's just a completely different mindset than I have ever had while on a 'diet'.
I just wish I could get the husband as gungho on it as I am. I made the Veggie Chili last week and he did eat that...I made some more last night and he didn't complain. But he's still consuming a bunch of crap that he thinks is fine for him like the banana bread with a cup and a half of sugar or the berry pie with 2 cups of sugar and crisco laden crusts. It may be homemade and home cooking but it's not healthy. He also won't give up meat. I have had about 4 ounces of chicken in the last month and I don't miss meat. It's really odd but I know it's not that good for us and I don't miss not eating it even tho it was a staple in my diet for so many years.
Today was a break thru for me. I hope that you have gotten to that same place or that you will soon.
It's a wonderful place to be!
Ciao for now
Most of the diets I just got sick of eating that way....the one that I had the most success with but despised the way I ate was the Atkins Diet. I love meat. I'm such a carnivore...if a meal didn't contain some sort of meat than it wasn't a meal. But the Atkins Diet goes way too far. After about 4 months and 50 lbs lost I couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't eat all that meat. It's just not good for you! The first few weeks off the diet I didn't eat much meat at all. I went back to veggies and fruits, the produce that I had missed sooo much while eating that way.
But eventually, I went right back to eating my old way...processed foods, meats some dairy. Junk food galore. Chips, cakes, cookies. I think I should have bought stock in Little Debbie. It was nothing for me to go to Walmart and pick up a couple of boxes of Little Debbie cakes and eat at least a box on my way home from the store. I only live about 5 minutes from Walmart! I would hide the other box and not let my husband know I had purchased it and when he was in the shower or when he left to run an errand I would rush to them and stuff a bunch in my mouth! I would do the same thing with Donuts or the Deli.
Anyway...back to WHY I think this weight loss endevor will be my last - The simple fact that I am scared TO DEATH to become diebetic. My family - both sides - have long histories of diebeties in the family. My dad's side is mostly juvenile diebeties. I have had too many aunts, uncles and cousins die from complications of diebeties. The most memorable was my Uncle Lewis. My sister and I grew up with him around. My dad and he were the closest in age and were really close as far as brothers go. We would spend alot of time at his house or he at ours. When he divorced from his wife he spent even more time at our place. He had a standing invitation to dinner and he was usually there right with us every night after work.
The first time I saw him fill his needle up and give himself a shot in the stomach made me cringe! I couldn't watch after that and always looked away when he would pull out his little pack.
I visit the doctor regularly because of my family history and while I was growing up I got blood tests done about every 6 months and the number they looked at most was the glucose. They always came back OK. When I got out on my own I still checked in with the doctor and go frequent blood tests just to make sure and even as my weight climbed my glucose levels stayed the same.
So I guess I didn't see my weight as such a problem as long as I was diebetic. That was my epiphiny this morning. I was talking to my sister online and she's diebetic. We were talking about her upcoming doctors appt and blood panels and all I could do was think "God, I'm so glad I don't have diebeties." and it hit me! I've been heavy for 15+ years and have never had a diebeties scare until this last blood panel. I always have thought about diebeties in the back of my mind but as long as my glucose levels were good what difference did it make that I was overweight other than I feel terrible about myself and hate being stared at as I enter a room.
This is why I know in my heart without a doubt this will be the last time I try to lose weight. I am making a lifestyle change and once my body has healed itself I won't need to worry about these things any longer. I enjoy eating this way and in some ways it's just easier. I can throw a bunch of veggies and some fruit into the juicer and be on my way.
I've been on a lot of diets and I can honestly say I've never been this at peace while on one. I don't feel deprived or starved. I eat when I get hungry and I don't worry about calories. That's the most awesome thing about eating this way. You don't have to count calories or fat or carbs. Everything is whole and natural. I read labels quite a bit and don't buy anything with added sugar or anything that has something in that I can't pronounce. It's just a completely different mindset than I have ever had while on a 'diet'.
I just wish I could get the husband as gungho on it as I am. I made the Veggie Chili last week and he did eat that...I made some more last night and he didn't complain. But he's still consuming a bunch of crap that he thinks is fine for him like the banana bread with a cup and a half of sugar or the berry pie with 2 cups of sugar and crisco laden crusts. It may be homemade and home cooking but it's not healthy. He also won't give up meat. I have had about 4 ounces of chicken in the last month and I don't miss meat. It's really odd but I know it's not that good for us and I don't miss not eating it even tho it was a staple in my diet for so many years.
Today was a break thru for me. I hope that you have gotten to that same place or that you will soon.
It's a wonderful place to be!
Ciao for now
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
The days just get away from me...
I know it's been awhile since I posted last. I've had a follow up doctors appt and some turmoil since the 23rd.
I went to my doctor's appt on Monday and he was very pleased with my progress even tho I don't feel as tho I lost enough in the two weeks I've been juicing. I weighed in at 12 lbs lighter than the first appt 3 weeks earlier and I didn't start my juice fast until the 12th which puts me at 6 lbs a week. I've only had ONE day where I've done nothing but juice. Every other day I've eaten something but it's always something thats on the juicing list OR it's plant strong.
I made some killer veggie chili over the weekend and it R O C K E D!
Here's the recipe:
1 Sweet Onion
1 Green Bell Pepper
3 or 10 cloves of garlic - suit to your tastes.
Veggie Broth - to saute
2 cans Black Beans
2 cans Garbonzo
2 cans Kidney Beans
2 cups of corn
2 cans of diced tomatoes - I used Hunts spicey fire roasted diced tomatoes
2.5 cups of water or veggie broth
2 cans of sliced mushrooms (optional) the mushrooms gives it a little chewy texture that kind of mimics meat.
1 tbls of Cumin
1 tbls of Chili powder
(I probably used more than that because I don't measure much of anything, I just put stuff in til it looks good)
Dice the onion, bell pepper and garlic into a pan and saute in veggie broth ( you can use 2 tbls of vegetable oil but I prefer broth) until onions are translucent - about 5 minutes
Add all other ingredients except for the corn and bring to a boil. Turn heat down and simmer covered for about 30 minutes. Add the corn and simmer for another 10 mintues.
Serve and enjoy! You can top the chili with sour cream or cheese but that does add calories and it was mighty fine without it.
I ate this every night for the past 4 nights. It was absolutely wonderful each time!
I just can't NOT eat. I juice in the morning and for lunch but for dinner I have to have something and I'm ok with that as long as the weight keeps coming off albeit slower than if I was only juicing. I had to find what worked for me and this is it. You might be different. You might be able to JUST juice and there is nothing wrong with that. I've been doing so many things wrong all these years and it finally feels that I'm doing something right now!
I went to my doctor's appt on Monday and he was very pleased with my progress even tho I don't feel as tho I lost enough in the two weeks I've been juicing. I weighed in at 12 lbs lighter than the first appt 3 weeks earlier and I didn't start my juice fast until the 12th which puts me at 6 lbs a week. I've only had ONE day where I've done nothing but juice. Every other day I've eaten something but it's always something thats on the juicing list OR it's plant strong.
I made some killer veggie chili over the weekend and it R O C K E D!
Here's the recipe:
1 Sweet Onion
1 Green Bell Pepper
3 or 10 cloves of garlic - suit to your tastes.
Veggie Broth - to saute
2 cans Black Beans
2 cans Garbonzo
2 cans Kidney Beans
2 cups of corn
2 cans of diced tomatoes - I used Hunts spicey fire roasted diced tomatoes
2.5 cups of water or veggie broth
2 cans of sliced mushrooms (optional) the mushrooms gives it a little chewy texture that kind of mimics meat.
1 tbls of Cumin
1 tbls of Chili powder
(I probably used more than that because I don't measure much of anything, I just put stuff in til it looks good)
Dice the onion, bell pepper and garlic into a pan and saute in veggie broth ( you can use 2 tbls of vegetable oil but I prefer broth) until onions are translucent - about 5 minutes
Add all other ingredients except for the corn and bring to a boil. Turn heat down and simmer covered for about 30 minutes. Add the corn and simmer for another 10 mintues.
Serve and enjoy! You can top the chili with sour cream or cheese but that does add calories and it was mighty fine without it.
I ate this every night for the past 4 nights. It was absolutely wonderful each time!
I just can't NOT eat. I juice in the morning and for lunch but for dinner I have to have something and I'm ok with that as long as the weight keeps coming off albeit slower than if I was only juicing. I had to find what worked for me and this is it. You might be different. You might be able to JUST juice and there is nothing wrong with that. I've been doing so many things wrong all these years and it finally feels that I'm doing something right now!
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